I heard this message from two sources in the past few days. Joel Osteen and Deepak Chopra both said this in the past few days.
Joel said, that living in faith and believing that you deserve the blessing is how you are blessed. It may not always be the exact way you wish/pray. However, faith will bring fulfillment. I have really grasped this concept. Many have said that I have changed. Of course I have changed. I am growing. I prayed for this change for many years. I am taking leaps of faith. I have not let a diagnosis bring me to a halt. I pray. Simply I pray. I know that I deserve the blessing. I am staying in faith knowing that no matter what I choose God is standing with me.
Deepak's approach is a little different. In our desires we become fulfilled. Desires have fulfilled my life in so many ways. In my desire, I payed off my car, obtained my certificate in esthetics, opened my suite, built my customer base, traveled and I have lived. I used to say I wanted to do this or that. Now I don't just say it I do it.
In both are the concept of what I deserve. I deserve success. I deserve education. I deserve to travel. I deserve happiness. Most of all I deserve to live my life my way. That is what sustains and fulfills me to accomplish my desires.
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
My desires are fulfilled from my true self.
Over the years my desires have definitely changed. In the past, I wanted to make more money, better cars, bigger home and material possessions. Now when I think of these things they are not as important.
Yes, of course I want to make more money. However, the trade is that I give up truly living.
I worked in the retail setting and worked hard. No matter how much or how hard I worked, it was not good enough. Politics ruled over hard work. In my last six years I was so miserable that my health was affected. The day I was demoted to make room for someone else was the best day of my life. My desires changed.
I began to find the way back to my true self. Things that I had not really done or experienced became important to me again. I got divorced soon after purchasing a home and moved into my mothers house. I started reading. Self help books, fiction, non-fiction and trade magazines. My desires had come back. I wanted to learn, to grow and to do a few things on my list.
I was me again. Not what someone else wanted me to be. My true self was alive. In my true self I found some old desires but also some new ones. There is no limit to what I can do.
Yes, of course I want to make more money. However, the trade is that I give up truly living.
I worked in the retail setting and worked hard. No matter how much or how hard I worked, it was not good enough. Politics ruled over hard work. In my last six years I was so miserable that my health was affected. The day I was demoted to make room for someone else was the best day of my life. My desires changed.
I began to find the way back to my true self. Things that I had not really done or experienced became important to me again. I got divorced soon after purchasing a home and moved into my mothers house. I started reading. Self help books, fiction, non-fiction and trade magazines. My desires had come back. I wanted to learn, to grow and to do a few things on my list.
I was me again. Not what someone else wanted me to be. My true self was alive. In my true self I found some old desires but also some new ones. There is no limit to what I can do.
Friday, November 7, 2014
My desires make me feel alive
Slept in this morning. Woke up and completed my meditation before doing anything. This is really helping me stay focused, positive and energized. I have been able to write every morning before getting out of bed. Although I am faced with challenges, I know I will overcome them all. I share what is going on with me because I know I am not the only one that is working through something.
I may be repeating myself with this next statement. Nevertheless, in the last four years I have come alive. In the past I have lived for everyone else. I was a child of my parents, I was a wife, I was a mother, I was a wife again and then it clicked. I was so busy being all of those people that I was not my own person.
I did a lot of soul searching when I moved home with my mom. I was suffering with fibromyalgia. I hated my job. My job was actually killing me. Three of my doctors at the time told me that I needed to cut my stress and find out what my passion was. All this time I thought I knew. I thought I was living it. Looking back I was so wrong. I had stopped drawing, reading, going to the museums, attending church, traveling and all the things I love to do. I had to start all over and rediscover what makes me happy. What do I want to do with my life and time.
This turned into my deepest desires. I want to get my certification in esthetics, my degree in business, open my own business and travel. I have been steadily checking these things off my list. In May of 2012, I graduated from Chi School of Cosmetology Lone Star North Harris. I am not far from completing my degree. I have opened my own business. I have been to Vegas twice. This was a long time dream come true. I have done several road trips all by myself. (My first trip alone ever was this past May to Dallas). I have memberships at the Museum of Natural Science and the Museum of Fine Arts where I am on any given Sunday. I have gone to several local events. (I would make excuses not to go in the past).
I have realized that these desires are not monetary or material. They are desires of accomplishment and education. I have adjusted my desires each time I have completed a goal.
People often ask how do I do all that I do. They ask where I get the energy. The energy is in the desire. The desire to advance my mind has become my most important mantra. I have definitely overcome the obstacles in my life. It was not easy. Some days I want to throw in the towel. (Not often and those days I pray harder. I also am not above asking for prayers). The desire has made me feel alive. I am really living my life instead of watching days go by. No regrets here just forward motion.
I may be repeating myself with this next statement. Nevertheless, in the last four years I have come alive. In the past I have lived for everyone else. I was a child of my parents, I was a wife, I was a mother, I was a wife again and then it clicked. I was so busy being all of those people that I was not my own person.
I did a lot of soul searching when I moved home with my mom. I was suffering with fibromyalgia. I hated my job. My job was actually killing me. Three of my doctors at the time told me that I needed to cut my stress and find out what my passion was. All this time I thought I knew. I thought I was living it. Looking back I was so wrong. I had stopped drawing, reading, going to the museums, attending church, traveling and all the things I love to do. I had to start all over and rediscover what makes me happy. What do I want to do with my life and time.
This turned into my deepest desires. I want to get my certification in esthetics, my degree in business, open my own business and travel. I have been steadily checking these things off my list. In May of 2012, I graduated from Chi School of Cosmetology Lone Star North Harris. I am not far from completing my degree. I have opened my own business. I have been to Vegas twice. This was a long time dream come true. I have done several road trips all by myself. (My first trip alone ever was this past May to Dallas). I have memberships at the Museum of Natural Science and the Museum of Fine Arts where I am on any given Sunday. I have gone to several local events. (I would make excuses not to go in the past).
I have realized that these desires are not monetary or material. They are desires of accomplishment and education. I have adjusted my desires each time I have completed a goal.
People often ask how do I do all that I do. They ask where I get the energy. The energy is in the desire. The desire to advance my mind has become my most important mantra. I have definitely overcome the obstacles in my life. It was not easy. Some days I want to throw in the towel. (Not often and those days I pray harder. I also am not above asking for prayers). The desire has made me feel alive. I am really living my life instead of watching days go by. No regrets here just forward motion.
Thursday, November 6, 2014
My desires make me feel alive.
My desires make me feel alive. I have repeated this to myself this morning and it is true. The desire I have had to achieve my goals has made me more alive than I have ever been.
Four years ago the thought of working, going to school and running a business was so far out of my mind. I came up with so many reasons why I could not achieve these goals. I thought I did not have enough time. I did not have enough money. I kept saying I wanted to enjoy my life. None of this was true. I could make the time. I could borrow, get scholarships or grants to pay for school. Achieving these goals has made me not only enjoy my life but I am living my life. I realized that I am more resilient than I ever thought. These excuses halted my desire.
I am by no means perfect. I still have material desires. Nevertheless these material desires come into my mind and leave just as quickly. I think them over and talk myself out of them. Yes, I would love to have a Dodge Hellcat. The reality of that desire is that it is not practical in my life. Gas mileage is horrible and face it in Houston we have to drive to get anywhere. I would be afraid to take it anywhere because I would want to fight the person that scratched it. I could not fit my massage table and supplies in it. So really not practical for my life or for my budget. Unless I win the lottery. Then the question is how would it make me feel? Sure I love fast cars. However, it would not help with my goals and accomplishments. I am almost 50. Education, working hard and having my own business have brought life to me. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia several years ago and was told that I would hurt every day. Doing all these things I was told that I could not do, brought life and healing. I am not in bed like I was four years ago. I am in almost constant motion. I have some pain but am medication free. These desires have done more for making me feel so alive and well. I think I really do not have the time to feel pain. I am so busy working for my goals and desires. I am happy and free.
Four years ago the thought of working, going to school and running a business was so far out of my mind. I came up with so many reasons why I could not achieve these goals. I thought I did not have enough time. I did not have enough money. I kept saying I wanted to enjoy my life. None of this was true. I could make the time. I could borrow, get scholarships or grants to pay for school. Achieving these goals has made me not only enjoy my life but I am living my life. I realized that I am more resilient than I ever thought. These excuses halted my desire.
I am by no means perfect. I still have material desires. Nevertheless these material desires come into my mind and leave just as quickly. I think them over and talk myself out of them. Yes, I would love to have a Dodge Hellcat. The reality of that desire is that it is not practical in my life. Gas mileage is horrible and face it in Houston we have to drive to get anywhere. I would be afraid to take it anywhere because I would want to fight the person that scratched it. I could not fit my massage table and supplies in it. So really not practical for my life or for my budget. Unless I win the lottery. Then the question is how would it make me feel? Sure I love fast cars. However, it would not help with my goals and accomplishments. I am almost 50. Education, working hard and having my own business have brought life to me. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia several years ago and was told that I would hurt every day. Doing all these things I was told that I could not do, brought life and healing. I am not in bed like I was four years ago. I am in almost constant motion. I have some pain but am medication free. These desires have done more for making me feel so alive and well. I think I really do not have the time to feel pain. I am so busy working for my goals and desires. I am happy and free.
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
Day one: My life moves forward through desire
As we changed the time I decided since everything would take a few days to come into balance, it would be the perfect time to make changes. Sunday, I began taking advantage of the time change and began waking an hour or more before I had previously. I made a commitment to read more and have started a new book. I also vowed to myself to read more about my industry and business. I also wanted to try and change my attitude. As I researched meditation, I found that many who meditate begin the day that way. Monday I began with a 21 day meditation led by Deepak Chopra and Oprah.
The first day went well. It was different than I thought. It was harder than I thought but easy enough to follow. Each day there was also a journal involved. I did not write anything down formally but wanted to contemplate before I write anything down. It has been a few days and I am ready to put my thoughts down. I am sharing these thoughts because many of my family, friends and friends of friends are going through the same process.
Since it is true that my life moves forward through desire. The desire that I feel now is totally different than the desire that I felt several years ago. My desire then was material possessions. I wanted a house, new car, clothes and the list goes on and on. I have learned that these are not true desires. These are simply wants of things that I can live without. It took me so long to figure this concept out for myself. At the time that I moved into my mothers house I had to put all my material possessions in storage. I have almost a complete house there and the stuff has been there for almost four years. On occasion I have missed not having my own space, some of my clothes and books. However, I did not suffer from their absence. The lack of these possessions made me make do with far less. This in turn changed what I desired. I now desire education, knowledge, time in nature, time with friends and family. Yes I get the urge every so often to buy something. However, when I do the something I want to buy is normally something to advance my mind or my business. As I listened to Deepak it was evident that my life has moved forward so much because my desire changed. In the years that I have been with my mother, I have obtained a certificate in esthetics, opened my own esthetic business, am 3 classes away from my associates, am 9 months from my instructors certification and closer to obtaining my bachelors degree. None of these accomplishments come from material possessions. Rather they come from hard work and my desire to complete these goals.
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